I WILL.

Dear, i want to tell you many things. but i really scared you will be angry. so i think i will just say it here..

I really wanted to surprise you, with the new cover. because i think it looks nicer, even though you got one, it does not harm to have another one, i thought of buying white for you, but i thought i will get green. because your favourite colour is green.but my friend say she can only tell me whether have green anot when she checks it out. i didnt wanted to tell you, because i wanted to surprise you.. seeing the surprise and happy look on your face, makes me really happy because i can put a smile on your face.

I really wanted to be the boyfriend of your dream, of your expectation. I hate it when you get upset with smth i said / do, I hate it and I feel so incompetent that I make you upset, just like today in the train when I talked about I am considering to get one for myself too so we can have similar phone and similar cover together.. even though I dont know whether there is the same cover for my model, I asked my friend to get yours first, because I wanted to cheer you up.

You are so important to me. the day when you didnt reply me on BBM, when I can't call through to you, I was so afraid! I kept turning and tossing on my bed, calling out to :" dear! where are you?!" countlessly till I decided to go out and get the sticky sweets and try my luck at Buangkok, if not your house downstairs, like how i used to go and find you when I cannot contact you that time..

Yes, 7months is not long. compared to others who dated for a year or two, ours is short. but to me, its not the duration, is what we have done together during this whole process, what we went through together as a couple. We laugh, we cried, we did almost everything together, all these forms up a beautiful part of my memory, and I will remember it for life, because it was so precious to me right now, right at this phrase of my life together with you.

everytime you get upset with me, you raise your voice at me, when you are pissed with other things, I will always try my best to make you happy again. everytime i feel down when you are not happy with me, happy moments flashes back in my mind, and I will try to talk to you nicely, try to tell you jokes, try to perk your mood up , or even at times when others say I look more like the girl in this r/s, I dont mind, I will try to make you happy even if it takes me to do so.

I really hope to last with you, and I remember always what you wrote in your letter , in your blog, that we MUST last, and we will go through everything TOGETHER.

Seriously, no words can describe how important you are to me, really.