even before I let go of you when we hugged just now , I was already feeling disturbed since last night. the fact that you re going to work later, the fact that you will be seeing some people. I can frankly say I dont really feel good about it, but i know I have to learn to let go, I have to be stretched.

yet sometimes, when I see you feeling so bored together with me, when you asked me what can we do yet im feeling so helpless that I could not ease your boredom, I feel like shit.

I tried to contact people that I can think of , but right at the same time they are not free if not I can sense that they are not so interested to meet. these are times that I asked myself, is my existence causing you to feel all these?

I cannot forgot word for word that you typed in the bbm that time, I can remember word for word what you wrote in your blog. when I asked you that time whether is it the fact that we hang out everyday causes us to be like that, you said no.

In all these, I can only think of the times when I feel secure, and just keep quiet about how I feel..